Nick Cannon and Alyssa Scott are mourning the death of Zen Scott Cannon, their five-month-old son, who died of a brain tumor.
On his daytime talk show, Cannon revealed a deeply intimate moment, and the next day, Scott rushed to social media to share her own touching message, paying loving tribute to their late son in a compilation video.
“Oh my sweet Zen. The soreness I felt in my arm from holding you is slowly fading away. It’s a painful reminder that you are no longer here,” Scott wrote in the beginning of her caption for her post, embedded above. “I caught myself looking in the backseat as I was driving only to see the mirror no longer reflecting your perfect face back at me. When I close a door too loudly I hold my breath and wince knowing a soft cry will shortly follow. It doesn’t come. The silence is deafening.”
Scott, like Cannon, talked about how the months after Zen’s birth in June had been a roller coaster, focusing on some of the better moments throughout that time
“These last 5 months we have been in this race together. We would hand the baton off to each other. You kept me going,” she continued. “It would be the middle of the night and you would smile at me. A surge of energy would fill my body and pure joy would radiate from within me. We were a team, both determined to see it through.”
Alyssa concluded by saying it was an honor to be Zen’s mother and that she will cherish the love and memories they shared for the rest of her life.
“It feels unbearable running without you now. I can’t. And in this moment I feel myself being carried. By your sister, By God, By complete strangers encouraging me to not give up. It has been an honor and privilege being your mommy. I will love you for eternity. 6•23•21 – 12•5•21.”
Check out the video Alyssa Scott posted on her Instagram feed: